One of my greatest frustrations in my diet is the fact that it’s soooo super hard to keep weight off. I think most people who go on a diet feel that way, right? I am, perhaps, the quintessential yo-yo dieter…losing weight here and there then gaining it back so readily. Gah.

I have come to realize, however, that it is a vicious cycle, this weight thing. Sure it comes with the fact that I have PCOS which makes weight loss extremely difficult, but a big part of it comes from habit…the habit of emotional eating, making wrong food choices and the list goes on and on.

This cycle started from way back when I was a kid. Just take a look at this (oh, btw, this is one of my most favorite childhood photos. I took a photo of the photo because even though a friend of mine gave me a scanner, I haven’t had the time to look for the scanner software needed to install it):

See, even as a child I was already chubby and I never really lost it completely (well, except for that brief period from 2001-2003 when I got really sick and lost about 80 pounds, all of which I gained back. toink).

Lately, I have found myself falling back to old patterns…yes, I’ve been buying ice cream, chocolates and the unhealthy stuff. What’s different, however, is that one, I can go without eating the whole bags of chocolates, chips or what not and two, I don’t use it AS MUCH to cover for emotions. Sure, I still fall into that trap now and then, but at least I’m making progress in changing the habit.

I just wish it wasn’t always such a struggle. Haha.