I’ve been battling a craving these past two days. I’ve been NEEDING a bag of peanut butter M&M’s. NEEDING.

And when I need food, that’s bad.

Over the past year since I’ve been practicing this whole mindful eating thing, I have become acutely aware of the difference between WANTING and NEEDING when it comes to my food cravings. For example, last Monday I did get some of those M&M’s because I knew it was a want and not a need.

What’s the difference, you may wonder? Well, what I’ve come to realize is that when I need something, it’s because of emotions that need to be covered up or ignored. Ergo: that would be me eating out of emotions alone and I try to avoid that.

I was thinking where the sudden shift from wanting those chocolates came from and I realized that up to now, there are certain things people say that stir up old wounds and when that happens, it cuts so deep that I find myself looking for something familiar and comforting, hence the need for food.

Now that I am more mindful, I don’t automatically reach for the food, even if I SOOOO DESPERATELY WANT TO. Instead, I will go to yoga. Twice today, in fact. Haha. And for today’s visualization, I am imagining myself with a hydraulic hose aimed at that certain people and things and I’m blasting them away and making space for more important things.

Yes, this is a random rant today. But hey, it was better than giving in to the craving, right?