On the way to work today, I was listening to RX 93.1′s The Morning Rush and I was laughing out loud —literally— at today’s topic. It was such a welcome reprieve from the bad dream, or should I say nightmare, that shook my world this morning. Today’s Top 10 topic was what song or movie title would describe your love (errrr…and more than love haha) life. It was sooooo funny I swear!!!

It kinda reminded me of an assignment I gave to my students earlier this term, about them creating a playlist of songs that described themselves. That assignment stemmed from the song There’s A Place for Us from the last Narnia movie. Today, however, as I tried to give that topic some thought,  I couldn’t really think of a song that would encapsulate my present life state. After all, there are too many songs I love and enjoy nowadays.

And then over lunch, I came across a photo in my inaanaks Facebook wall (which I am now pirating haha)

Ang cute ng timing diba…haha.

Then, after a few songs played on Piper, many of which reminded me of various people, the song “Opposites Attract” by Juris came on and I could’t help but smile because it dawned on me that perhaps this is indeed the song that suits me best for now :)

I first heard this song a couple of weeks back on the way home from a girl’s night out with some really good mommy blogger friends and when I did, it made me smile a lot and remember this other friend of mine who, despite being so similar to myself, is my polar opposite as well. Lately, however, I have been thinking that perhaps the reason why this song means a lot to me is because it is exactly what I’ve been discovering about myself in my yoga practice. I have been learning to discover the very stark polar opposites I maintain in my life: from being very, very shy (which many don’t believe harhar) to the exuberant bubbly person I show to the world, to fearing the darkness and silence yet thriving in it, and yes, even fearing being alone when I do love the joy of solitude. Extreme ends of the pendulum, right?

Oh, but more than just discover it, I’ve been learning to welcome it and allow it space to exist.

And so today I came to the conclusion that perhaps, that is exactly the song for me. I am but a bundle of Opposites that attract. The challenge, it seems, is to find the middle ground so I don’t struggle too much or get confused along the way so I can get out of that proverbial teacup that I keep diving into headfirst, fully with no means to get out. And so as the song goes,

I wanna go right, you’d rather go left
I wanna go fight, you’d rather be quiet
I wanna be right, you’d rather be wrong
I wanna be weak, you’d rather be strong
Movin’ along, singin’ our song
Opposites do attract
Needing each other, always together
Opposites do attract

You take me just as I am
No more, no less, just as I am, oh yeah

I will find that middle ground.
oh…commercial lang….as I listened I remembered my dear colleague Ma’am Flory and as I did, I couldn’t help but be a little wistful and nostalgic…but as promised, I thought of her with love and light, and when I did, I smiled a bit and remembered that despite today’s bad dreams and in spite of the whispers of doubt and insecurity that come every now and then, I am loved :)

Hi Ma’am Flory :) I wonder what your song for me would be…I’ll be waiting for it, okay? :)