Every once in a while, no matter how happy and content I am, days creep in that highlight things I wish I had, or don’t have for that matter. No, this isn’t me wanting to have my proverbial cake and eat it too. And yes, when this happens, it brings with it a whole lot of mixed emotions that often end up with a pint of ice cream.
Today isn’t one of those, FYI, but last night I had a dream and it kind of reminded me of those days…those 5 days in a year that bring so much happiness and yet tap into all other sorts of feelings too…
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So, what days are these? Here they are in how-I-kinda-wish-you-were-over order:
- My birthday
- Christmas Day
- Christmas Eve
- New Years Eve
- Valentines Day
Bitter much? Haha.
Seriously though, like I said, much as those days are filled with joy and love, they often times have the power to make me feel so sad and lonely, even in spite of all the good things that come my way. It goes beyond the gifts and the holiday cards and greetings. It’s really because those are the days that feel very frustrating for me as a woman. It makes me feel like life is passing by so quickly and I’m still stuck at lifetime behind.
So…yes, since Valentines and my birthday are quickly approaching, I can feel the blues rearing it’s ugly head., waiting to pounce. Sigh. Those days are just no fun at all I tell ya.
Let’s see, however, what 2011 has in store for those days for me…uh-huh, this is me, still hopeful 
