Fat Girl No More

I was browsing online for one of those high powered mixers and much to my entertainment, rather than information about Breville’s and Vitamixes, I found Yamahas and the like. It was a classic case of miscommunication haha. Rather than getting a blender, I found music. The photos reminded me of when I was a teenager hanging out in my stepdad’s studio (no, not a yoga studio but a music studio!) and listening to my friends jam. He had pretty good equipment, at least I think they were pretty good. My friends loved being able to jam with such professional props and not just an ordinary acoustic guitar. Oh the random memories from a misguided search teehee.

Huhuhuuuuu.

In my last blog post I talked about how my template has failed, hence me reverting to one of the basic templates of WordPress. I really have been way to busy to figure out how to fix it, even though I would really want to. Boo, I tell ya. Today, however, I found that all the pictures from old posts are gone. HUHUHU. How do I fix this??? Gosh. Do I need to clean up computer cache or what? HEEEELP!!!

In one of the recent WordPress updates, my blog’s template failed Hence the present look for this blog. I feel bad because one, I can’t figure out how to fix it (and I don’t have time! haha) and two, the pictures of my old blog posts don’t work anymore. Huhu. Any advice about how to fix it?

Over the past few weeks, I’ve gave that question quite a bit of thought. I have come to realize that my weight issues really go beyond just the amount of food I eat, or the type of food I eat, but the WAY I eat. I realized that because I skip meals and am unmindful, I tend to gain weight more. Another thing that contributes to weight gain is eating out too much. I remember when I was still an active blogger who would go to events, I gained so much weight because I ate so much and unhealthily at such events. While I do miss those events (especially the recent one when my friends reviewed headsets like the sennheiser hd25-1 ii headphones — which I heard is awesome!), I see how it has affected my weight. In any case, I won’t blame the events for my weight gain, but the way I would eat in those events. As I recommit to my journey today, I commit to being mindful about the way I eat so as I can be more aware of what makes me fat. Wish me luck.

I may not have been blogging regularly about my weight loss issues, but I have been working hard at it. I have been blessed with a friend who has been doing integrative nutrition counseling with me and I think this has helped with my struggle with weight. Yes, I still have quite a bit to lose, but I think I’m slowly getting a hold of what leads to these struggles.

I do, however, recommit today to making this blog an important event of my journey.

I got an email recently and it was kind of like a reminder of the life I used to live. A reader reached out to me and asked why I stopped blogging. On one hand, I was glad to receive her note because it reminded me of why I used to do this. On the other, it made me a little sad because I have neglected my blog and my readers so much. So here I am, the prodigal daughter, trying to recommit to blogging my way to fitness. I’m hoping this isn’t gonna be like those cheap postcards that are just thrown out into the air and forgotten. Fingers crossed.

In the meantime, thank you, dear readers, for being patient and coming back, even when I’m always away

Yes, here I am counting down again to my weight loss deadlines. BOOOO.

Why is it so hard to maintain a steadiness in the weight loss journey?

I blame this latest fluctuations on:

1. White rice.

2. Coke.

3. Too many eggs.

4. Peanut butter kitkats.

WAAAAH. Save me from myself. Bow.

One of the greatest things finding contentment and peace (or steadiness, as I’d like to think of it) with my weight is that I have allowed myself to embrace many changes without much of a struggle anymore. Or at least less of a struggle. For example, because I am more content with where I am, I have dropped my guard a bit and allowed myself to try things I’ve never done…such as go karaoke-ing with my friends! Anything that had to do with music before used to throw me off like crazy. So while weight loss may have seemed to be a physical thing in the beginning, I must admit, it is more than that. Oh the changes, indeed. Who knows, I may just go out and get myself one of those Moog Keyboards and explore the sides of me that I never let loose in the past…the musical me, in particular!!!